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Thursday, November 3rd, 2011

Time:8:27 pm.
I'm obsessed with reading my past entries...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Friday, October 22nd, 2010

Subject:I'm not dead...
Time:6:10 pm.
Things are good and blah...living with Derek is awesome...he is the man I'll be with for life...I am going to be an auntie in a few months to two neices or nephews...got my job back...on the other hand...I have flakey friends and an ex who is an asshole...
Comments: 3horizons - twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Sunday, May 2nd, 2010

Subject:Ahhh...
Time:5:32 pm.
Update...

Got pink slipped back in March...which means...I am being cut due to budget cuts...damn Swartzenagger (sp?) and his team of retards...more and more teachers losing jobs due to education being cut...all that will be left in the schools are a bunch of old dinosaurs who cannot even turn on a computer...makes me so mad...final info will be sent out May 15th...so more sadness/final sadness to come...

4 months strong...things going good with Derek...we're going to move in together at the end of August...first time I have ever wanted to live with someone...makes me happy and nervous...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Sunday, October 18th, 2009

Subject:Another Day...
Time:9:29 am.
Mood: productive.
Well...I do not want to use this place to complain...so here is my attempt at NOT complaining...

I am going to grade some papers today so I can get ahead...Tomorrow is game 3 of the Yankees/Angels...Yankees need one more win to take it...wouldn't it be awesome to see the Dodgers lose to the Yankees in the World Series?

Anyway...I am thinking positive and looking forward to the upcoming week!
Comments: 1horizon - twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Friday, July 17th, 2009

Subject:Zoned out...
Time:6:32 pm.
Mood: drained.
I haven't had a good night's sleep in weeks...my mind races all night...I just want to lay down, shut my eyes and sleep :-(
Comments: 2horizons - twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Sunday, May 17th, 2009

Subject:...
Time:3:52 pm.
I will be my best for him...if he will have me.
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Friday, December 26th, 2008

Subject:Christmas...
Time:6:48 pm.
It was good and sad...

Xmas Eve was at my parents house...not many showed up...all the family feuding...of course it has to do with money...some of my loving aunts and uncle think my grandpa is dead for some reason...hes alive and its his money...

Christmas...went to my aunt's new house...i was the bigger person eventhough she never showed up when i would invite her...my house still has more personality...went to see Sam...he wasn't himself...very down...which made me down...which made me think of the past 3 and a half months...i made a lot of mistakes in life...but what i did is unforgiveable...

how can i make things better? any suggestions? how can i redeem myself?

with the new year so close i can touch it...i want to be a better self...the person i see in the mirror is unrecognizable...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Sunday, December 21st, 2008

Subject:time to repent...
Time:11:07 pm.
I know that Sam will never forgive me...as much as he wants to...I'm going to pay for my actions for the rest of my life...guess what? I haven't forgiven myself...as much as it hurts...I wish he'd go sleep with someone...then we could both be bad...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Saturday, December 6th, 2008

Subject:NO SUBJECT
Time:8:29 am.
I'M SERIOUSLY TRYING TO JUST LIVE...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Monday, November 24th, 2008

Subject:something new
Time:3:20 pm.
Mood: morose.
I would give up a lot in order to have some change...I feel like I cannot make any good decisions...and no matter what I do...it hasn't made me happy...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Sunday, November 2nd, 2008

Subject::-(
Time:9:58 am.
Mood: crappy.
Life sucks...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Saturday, September 6th, 2008

Subject:My Birthday...
Time:2:47 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Tomorrow is my 26th birthday...yes I know...it's old...but yet not really

I have asked God to take away the sun and send the cold and wind...I love the fall...

Ok so it's been about 100 F here...or 38 C for those who are not on Fahrenheit...

We are going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight...It's gonna be good...

Tomorrow I am going to see a musical with my mom and then dinner with the family my love Sam...

Hopefully I will not be all brusied up from being on the floor tonight...wish me luck...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Monday, September 1st, 2008

Subject:End of a Summer...
Time:5:19 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
Well...as an official educator of our youth...I know that the beginning of school ends our wonderful summer...

I look forward to the beautiful fall...fireplaces...autumn foliage...coffee...sweaters...Halloween...etc...

I will be 26 on September 7th...can you believe it?

Birthday plans...

Saturday we are going to Nine Inch Nails...floor tickets...I hope to come back with plenty of bruises and possibly a fat lip...jk...then after some drinks...

Sunday is officially my bday...mom is making my fav cake...upside down pineapple cake...i hate frosting...

The following weekend...we are having a party here to mark my bday as well as justin's...he will be 23...so I have much to look forward to...

I am anticipating the beginning of the school year...i cannot wait to meet my new students...

Oh oh oh...we got metallica tickets today!!!!

there is a new venue in the IE...right off of haven in Ontario...that will be something to look forward to in December...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Monday, August 25th, 2008

Subject:I don't know...
Time:4:57 pm.
Mood: thoughtful.
Well...i have some meetings this week and trainings for some new things this school year...i start back teaching 5th grade on september 3rd...the 7th is my bday...

I know it will be a stressful year, but I want to make sure to make it enjoyable for my students and myself...

I have had a nice relaxing summer for the most part...I have been able to catch up with friends and work on my house...

I have spent a lot of time alone here...It has given me plenty of time to think...and not worry about papers I have to grade and lessons that need planning...

Sometimes I tend to think too much...it's not good if I analyze everythings...I don't want to make stupid mistakes and changes in my life that are not good for me in the long run...

I am happy for the most part, but I am also unhappy...I feel like I want something more...Something exciting...I hate being in this comfort zone...nothing new...just the old...I can predict the next move...I don't know what has happened to me...I used to have a lot of fun...now I see myself as too old to do certain things...but I am not old...I am old for my age...physically I am not old...in years I am not old...I want to spice things up without making others mad or wonder why I have changed...even though the person I am now is the changed me...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Thursday, August 7th, 2008

Time:10:20 pm.
Mood: curious.
Well...next week I'm going to Vegas...

the week after that I probably will be working on my classroom...

the final week of August...I will be attending 3 days of meetings...

School Starts on September 3rd...Less than a month away...I can't believe it...

My birthday is on September 7th...the big 26...

I cannot believe how fast time has past by me...In 2010 I will have my 10 year reunion...

I feel like I need to slow time down...

I will be married within about 5 years...scares me...and I don't think I will ever be ready...so when it happens...well...it happens...

I am watching the E True Hollywood Story for Jenna Jameson...this show makes you feel bad for any person who is on it...

interesting...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Tuesday, August 5th, 2008

Subject:baby showers...
Time:10:50 pm.
Mood: bored.
I do not like baby showers...wedding showers...weddings...etc...

I have to go to one on Saturday...

Monday I am leaving to go to Vegas...I cannot wait...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Wednesday, July 30th, 2008

Subject:Earthquake
Time:10:08 pm.
Mood: good.
So yesterday we felt an earthquake here in southern california...it registered from a 5.4-5.8

I was a Blockbuster looking for movies to rent...this female worker grabbed my arm and took me to a safer place in the store...I was standing under hanging light fixtures and towers of movies...I was safe and so were the workers there...just a few movies fell off the shelf...

Later that day I went to the mall...some small stores were closed because they were cleaning up the mess caused by the earthquake...

interesting...

went to see STEP BROTHERS with Sam...it was surprisingly funny...

here's a pic my dad took on his phone when he was in New York City...he sent it to me...Strawberry Fields...


Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Monday, July 28th, 2008

Subject:I am back...
Time:10:04 pm.
Mood: bored.
Well all...I am back after almost a year...I have not written in here because I have been busy...or just retarded...I miss venting in here...I have decided to read my entries from the last few years...usually it depresses me and I think of how things were...I am not complaining about how things are now...I am happy with things and have much to share...I do not know where to begin...

1. I have been with Sam for over 4 and a half years. (record for me...read old entries and you will find much dating and lots of hurt)

2. I am still teaching 5th grade...I did not end up teaching 6th...

3. I have neglected too many of my past friendships...I miss so many people it hurts...

4. I bought my first house just one month before my 25th bday...

5. I am just over a month shy of 26...God I am old...

6. I have a weenie dog named Slinky...

7. I am sick of trying to save my backyard grass from dying...

8. I bought the coolest new pair of purple maryjanes for the fall...

9. I have neglected my livejournal time because I could not be as honest as I used to be in here...this is due to the fact that my bf was on here as a friend...I was vent-less (sp?)

10. I just want to mellow out...

11. I am on vacation until the last week of august...

12. I have blonde highlights...

13. I go up and down in weight...

14. I miss you all...

I am pretty sure there is much more but I do not know what else...so for now I will continue to think about it and possibly update this entry...


Comments: 1horizon - twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Wednesday, August 22nd, 2007

Subject:Whoa...
Time:10:33 pm.
Mood: exhausted.
Okay...soon I will post some Hawaii pix and my new house pix...

been extra tired...

on the agenda...

1. finish organizing and decorating my classroom (Did I mention I am teaching 6th grade?)

2. paint rooms in house

3. landscape backyard of house

4. prepare myself for 25 (b-day on sept 7th!)

5. go on a well needed hike with Amber

6. get Slinky licensed (sp?)...did I mention I got a new dog? He's a dauschund...pix to come soon...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

Tuesday, July 10th, 2007

Time:3:08 pm.
So...I am all sweaty right now...I'm on a gym-kick...gotta look better before hawaii...I am going with Sam, Justin and Art...it's gonna be awsome...it's my first vacation with Sam...so I have to loose at least 10 pounds of fat before August 4th...I have lost 27 so far and plan to lose 10 this month...but damnit...I am uncapable of starving myself!!! I guess that's a good thing...anyway...things with my house are looking good...I'll post pix of my house as soon as I can...
Comments: twisted thoughts that spin round my head.

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